Long term sobriety step work

Submitted by gerard f. on Wed, 2005-04-20 09:12.
I'm looking for others who have some long term sobriety and would like to share experiences with doing the steps for a 2nd, 3rd, etc, time. I have about 2-1/2 sobriety and am beginning a new 4th step and have found some astounding things this time around in regards to manipulation, substitute higher powers, and illusions of control.  I'd like to hear others experiences with what has been revealed when doing the steps formally for a 2nd or 3rd time. Thanks.
Submitted by JudyK on Wed, 2005-04-20 14:18.
I have been in 12-step recovery for 13 and a half years, and am doing the steps again with a new sponsor. I am in the beginning part of working step 4 again, and so far it has been challenging. I wrote a list of fears, and it was long and scary, and it felt like the fears were presenting themselves to me the whole day I was writing them down. I noticed some confusion between fears, dislikes, and habitual avoidance of specific things/situations. I do know that I am working them a lot deeper this time than early in recovery.
Submitted by Anonymous on Wed, 2005-04-20 14:51.
Thanks for sharing. I am finding some fear in listing some people on my harm inventory who appeared on my first inventory who I have still not made amends to.  Knowing that this is not about apologizing but righting a wrong, my ego is taking a hit (which is probably a good thing). So in writing this I see that what I am really doing is time traveling, predicting the results of future events, so the fix is to get back in the moment, do what's in front of me. It continues to amaze me that simply talking with someone who is going thru the same thing can reveal thruths I am unable to see alone The good news is that my resentment inventory has less names than the first time I did it. Something that came up this time in my resentment inventory were many ill feeling towards principles and institutions. Many of these are old but never showed up on my first 4th step. Thanks again for sharing. All the best to you.