HELP! I acted out again!

Submitted by damiana on Thu, 2006-06-22 22:38.
I am so ashamed of my actions today. I've been secluding myself by ONLY going to work and home just to avoid my addiction. I don't go anywhere else besides the grocery store, but hold many sexual conversations over the phone. Today, I broke my routine and had sex on two separate occasions with two past lovers. I wasn't completely safe and I'm scared that I will do this again tonite! It's getting terrible because I'm finding myself so consumed with thoughts of having sex and masturbation that I'm neglecting other responsibilities (home, family, pets, outdoor recreation). I need to join a group quickly, but there aren't any near where I live. What's a woman like me to do?!
Submitted by tendario on Sun, 2008-07-13 22:15.
Well, being honest about yourself and confessing helps you and others. It helps you to come clean, and it helps others to realize that we are not alone in our addiction. We all suffer. We all make mistakes, and we all need help. Just keep working the program as best as you can. Keep confessing, and if nothing else, you have an online connection of real people who understand and are on board with you. I know this much about the urge of temptation, it ultimately passes. It is mind bending in the moment, but it does pass. Look for an escape, seek to escape its grip on you. Keep talking about it to people of confidence like this anonymous group and you'll get there--one day at a time.
Submitted by lindasu on Tue, 2006-07-11 03:02.

damiana, i also live far from meetings, but have found online recovery groups to be very helpful.

 

Submitted by webmaster on Fri, 2006-06-30 08:06.

And many other women have gone through the same and have found long-term sobriety in the program. But initially it does take a certain amount of effort.

For example, it requires one making the effort to get to a group even if it is a distance. I had to drive 1.5 hours roundtrip every weekday for months to get to a group in which I found sobriety. Sobriety from this disease is very much possible--and incredibly thrilling--but all things precious do come at a price.

First, which part of town are you in?

There are two women-only groups listed here: http://aasg.info/taxonomy/term/10

And I know of a Friday evening women's group that just started but not listed yet.

Hope to hear from you.